BENSTAGE 19.1 Next Level Failure


Insight : Low Writing Energy

I still don’t feel to have the right energy to write or actively deal with politics again. What happens around me, depresses me, saddens me. Back then, at least writing about it, was some kind of outlet. Not that something would change, if I would write about it. But maybe it would help myself to get a grip on what’s going on. To also finally find my personal way to do something. In...

Insight : Brainwork

I think most feelings I don’t handle well, would not such a big problem, if I’d take the time to analyse where these feelings are actually coming from, why I think the thinks that I do. Sometimes, I think my brain or heart or soul is lazy: taking the easiest way out, which is feeling bad, while it would just need some active thinking (brainwork you know) to get to a better place. Then...

Personal OKR – 19/52

I’m closing this experiment with a devastating result: I only finished 31.41% of my goals. At least 50% would have been nice, but I’m also not surprised. Even though, I massively failed last quarter, I will try this again in 2020. I can’t know of course, but maybe I wouldn’t even done the 31% without this list. This time, I will create OKR for the whole year, not just one...

ReduzierBen – Week #138

Last week of the year was also not good – like the whole year actually. Gained another 1.2 kilo. I started this year with 104 kilo, with the goal to reduce to 94 kilo. all in all I gained more than 7 kilo. So I failed pretty spectacular. But no use in getting depressed about this now – I know why this happened and I know how to change it. And I will, it just will need more time. Kilo...

Der Dicke Wal 19/52

Okay, before posting the first results for the new year, quickly the last week for 2019. Also the last time we see this nice image – already excited how the whale for 2020 will look like?

Activity #1 | Running | 46:31 min | 6.29 km

Activity #2 | Running | 47:23 min | 6.45 km

Daily Biking : 0 km

Insight : Non-Thinking

I still have a hard time thinking about nothing for only ten minutes. Context: As part of my morning routine (which I haven’t been able to live for ages, but try again) I sit down for ten minutes, just breath and try to thing about nothing. A prestage for meditating which I totally suck at. But also just trying not to thing about anything is hard. I mostly fail. I wonder, how long it will...

BENSTAGE 19.1 Next Level Failure

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