BENSTAGE 19.1 Next Level Failure


Insight : Brainwork

I think most feelings I don’t handle well, would not such a big problem, if I’d take the time to analyse where these feelings are actually coming from, why I think the thinks that I do. Sometimes, I think my brain or heart or soul is lazy: taking the easiest way out, which is feeling bad, while it would just need some active thinking (brainwork you know) to get to a better place. Then...

Insight : Non-Thinking

I still have a hard time thinking about nothing for only ten minutes. Context: As part of my morning routine (which I haven’t been able to live for ages, but try again) I sit down for ten minutes, just breath and try to thing about nothing. A prestage for meditating which I totally suck at. But also just trying not to thing about anything is hard. I mostly fail. I wonder, how long it will...

Insight : Tired

At the moment, since a couple of weeks actually I have the feeling to getting tireder the more I sleep and rest – which I did quite a lot the last days and weeks. This can’t be good and it starts to piss me off …

Insight : Yoga

I really should do Yoga. Says the evil massage-man. Weightlifting does not solve my problem. Of course that’s also not true, it would help if I build up some more muscles for my back. But in the end, this will not cure my scoliosis – nothing will cure this. And it’s not that it would need healing, but it has an effect and a better movability could help. Thing is … I hate...

Insight : Weaknesses

My biggest strengths, are also my biggest weaknesses. Or even enemies. Not really a surprise, surely not the first time this becomes clear to me and maybe it’s not even that uncommon, but its surely an unsettling insight every time. Fighting something, what you thing makes you at least a little bit special, is a tough assignment.

BENSTAGE 19.1 Next Level Failure

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