For four weeks at a time, I have now gained weight, finally quite strong at 103.7 kilos. I was able to successfully stop this upward trend by self-contempt – 1.2 kilos less on now 102.5 kilos. Because I weighed myself in between and had already seen quite different numbers, I had even expected more with less, but that’s okay. At least there is a realistic result. That I weighed myself in, reveals how fucked up the situation is. To hold on well, I can take this step in the right direction, no special, sporting commitment as just reported or discipline but blunt eschew. I just do not eat anything in the evening or very little. Likewise, I do not want to lose weight, but hey, it works and I needed the brake. I will probably continue this week and then somehow it will have to be different again. I’ still like to come under 101. Most of all, but of course under the 100th. I would like to give this to myself for Christmas. Let’s see.