BENSTAGE 19.1 Next Level Failure

ReduzierBen – Week #190

Last entry of this kind was almost exactly one year ago. As I mentioned I have almost all of the data from this year, but not sure yet if I will enter them subsequently. Since then, a lot has happened, but nothing good I fear. I ended 2019 with around 112 kilo, today my scale told me that I started 2021 with 124 kilo. So 12 kilo more. That’s a lot and pretty grim. Not the fattest I’ve ever been, but not that far away.

I haven’t been taken care very good of myself lately. Well, obviously. I have to be honest, that I gave up in between. I wasn’t even trying anymore and the result is this. Nothing that makes me happy. My goal back then was to get way under the 100, not I would be happy if I get to the 112 again anytime soon. This will be a tough thing to achieve, as m motivation is pretty much none existing.

The only good thing is: I know I can do this, as I did it before, like two times actually. It is getting harder I feel, but this is also an excuse. I know the means, I know what to do. I just need to do it and I will start now. I will achieve something, I know I can. But the question is, how good I can get in what time. It is more difficult under the circumstances I feel. First thing I need, is a first success experience. Maybe already next Sunday, let’s see …

Kilo : 124.0 | FAT : 35.9 | BMI : 36.2

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