BENSTAGE 19.1 Next Level Failure

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Insight : Low Writing Energy

I still don’t feel to have the right energy to write or actively deal with politics again. What happens around me, depresses me, saddens me. Back then, at least writing about it, was some kind of outlet. Not that something would change, if I would write about it. But maybe it would help myself to get a grip on what’s going on. To also finally find my personal way to do something. In...

Bewegende Worte

Einmal mehr Januar und Februar überlegt – diese hässlichen Abziehbilder von Monaten die jeder normale Mensch nur ignorieren kann. Wer sich den Anfang des Jahres ausgedacht hat, gehört erschossen. Ich frage mich ob ich damit irgendwann noch mal wieder besser klar kommen werde, oder ob es das nur noch schlimmer wird. Die ersten Monate eines neuen Jahres bin ich maximal am existieren, mit...

Insight : Brainwork

I think most feelings I don’t handle well, would not such a big problem, if I’d take the time to analyse where these feelings are actually coming from, why I think the thinks that I do. Sometimes, I think my brain or heart or soul is lazy: taking the easiest way out, which is feeling bad, while it would just need some active thinking (brainwork you know) to get to a better place. Then...

Darkness – Eminem

Different topic, but similar dark. Mr Mathers dropped again a new longplayer out of the blue. Not completely without scandal from what I hear, but i like his style. Darkness deals with the last hours of the Las Vegas shooter who killed 58 people in 2017. From the perspective of the shooter. Pretty grim and dark, but I like it. Lyrics, music, but als I appreciate when artist tackle topics which...

Another Day In Paradise – Phil Collins

This version definitely has more power, maybe just because it feels louder. Still a great song. Love it. She calls out to the man in the street“Sir, can you help me?It’s gettin’ cold and there’s nowhere to sleepIs there somewhere you can tell me?” Oh, think twice‘Cause there’s another day for you and me in paradiseOh, think twice‘Cause there’s...

Weiße Fahne – Moses Pelham

Mr Pelham sings! I’m really looking forward to the long player. I’m just amazed about the development of this outstanding artist. Huge fan, always will be. A true artist with relevant messages. FÜR DIE IS´ DAS HIER GERADE EIN PIANO UND GESINGE SONST NICHTSDIE HABEN KEINE AHNUNG VON WIE DRINGEND DAS IS´WIE DIESE SCHWINGUNGEN EIN SEGEN SIND UND MIT HOFFNUNGEN GEPAARTSO DINGER HIER...

Personal OKR – 19/52

I’m closing this experiment with a devastating result: I only finished 31.41% of my goals. At least 50% would have been nice, but I’m also not surprised. Even though, I massively failed last quarter, I will try this again in 2020. I can’t know of course, but maybe I wouldn’t even done the 31% without this list. This time, I will create OKR for the whole year, not just one...

Insight : Non-Thinking

I still have a hard time thinking about nothing for only ten minutes. Context: As part of my morning routine (which I haven’t been able to live for ages, but try again) I sit down for ten minutes, just breath and try to thing about nothing. A prestage for meditating which I totally suck at. But also just trying not to thing about anything is hard. I mostly fail. I wonder, how long it will...

BENSTAGE 19.1 Next Level Failure

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